I can’t wait for Bon Odori so that I can wear my new yukata.
I want to go online. I want to go online. I want to go online. *rant rant rant*
Anyway, since I’m banned from the computer, I’ve had a lot of time to do some self-reflecting and thinking. I shall now proceed to share my thoughts with you, as vast as an ocean they might be.
1. Sometimes, I wonder if I am really anti-social. I mean, if I was just a little nicer, a little friendlier, I’d b able to make friends easier right? The problem is that I’m shy. ;-; And also, I tend to ignore people whenever I feel like it. Many of my friends including my best mate has been ignored by me countless times. I wonder why I feel that way. *ponders* A few of my friends once told me that before they knew me, they thought I was an arrogant person. *sniffles* Do I really seem that way to you? D:
2. I got back my midterm results. It was… Very, very disappointing. Yes, it probably is my fault. If I had actually picked up the book a few weeks ahead of time instead of the day before the exam and even then I did not actually study much, I merely read through the summaries of each chapter, I would have probably gotten straight A1s. (So confident /swt) Instead, I got myself a few A2s that only needed a few more marks to reach an A1. It is also the first time I had gotten below 70 for my Perdagangan. It is also the first time I did not place first in my class ever since I came to the Arts stream. *is in a state of denial* I really, really should study, like.. right now. I must do it for the sake of the reward I’d get if I manage to pass my SPM with flying colours. Help me Q___Q
3. Pn. Judy sort of pursuaded me into taking the UNSW English exam. Why why why why why. What if I fail? What if I don’t pass with distinction? What if I get a mere pass? What would happen to my self-worth then?!? It’s bad enough that Michelle got a distinction for it last year. It’d be a total embarassment if I’d get anything worse that that. It’s bad enough that she scored 95 for her English during midterms and I only got 93. *sighs* I should stop being so competitive right?
4. I think I’m a Japanophile. Or more like, I AM a Japanophile. It’s like I’m addicted to all things Japanese. Their fashion, culture, history… Recently I’ve even been reading Japanese literature (that has been translated into English cause I suck at Japanese). Like, when I went to Kinokuniya that day, I felt compelled to buy every single English book that was by a Japanese author. The only thing that I can’t stand is Japanese food though, namely sushi. I just can’t understand why people would each such bland, tasteless food topped with seafood and the like? (I hate seafood. Hate hate HATE it.)
5. Recently, I bought the abridged version of “The Tale of Genji”. I was going to purchase the complete translation but sadly the staff at Kinokuniya wrapped the book rather badly. I also found the novel version of Kamikaze Girls translated into English. Finally! Sadly there were only 3 books left and they were in a rather bad condition, but I bought it anyway. I absolutely detest books that have ‘dog ears’ or tears or any damage to them. When I see a book like that, my heart dies a little inside. That’s why I seldom lend my books to people. Once I lent “Eragon” to one of my classmates and when she gave it back to me, the book’s cover were torn at the seams and when I stared at the book, I felt a compelled to throw it away. Maybe I’m just being picky, but my love for books are just too great. My books have to be in a perfect and pristine condition at all times. :/
6. I am now truly broke. Cosplay and lolita just eats into your wallet, little by little till there’s nothing left. All the more reason to get straight A1s for my SPM so that I can get more cash. Someone exchange brains with me. I want a brain like Pei Ling’s or Mei Yeen’s. *O*
7. Sometimes I dream of owning a shop like Black Alice, catering lolita items to residents all over Malaysia. Yet, I know that it is not a profitable job and since Malaysians tend to favour cheap items from I-socks rather than branded goods, I don’t think it’s a very good idea. Meeting ‘Kami-sama’ like the owner of Black Alice would be awesome though. Kami-sama aka Akinori Isobe even gave a Btssb dress to Tim’s wife! D: *jealous*
8. I’m very very uncertain of my future. Maybe I’ll go down the path my parents have suggested for me. Deep down inside though, all I want is to be a housewife with a maid to the housework for me so I can laze around all day doing nothing while my husband goes out to work. *is such a lazy person*
9. I tend to compose long and boring posts about the same repetitive things over and over and over again. I’m such a boorish person. Sheesh.
10. Do I look like a Japanese? o__O I’ve been getting the phrase “Are you a Japanese?” or people mistaking me as a Japanese countless times. Even when I’m wearing my school uniform in school or when I wore a plain t-shirt and knee-length pants or when I wear nothing but casual clothes. Weird. I don’t think I look like a Japanese in particular or anything.
PS: My birthday is next month. I WANT PRESENTS! Lalalalala. xD
Think of it as… A birthday present to me. *cough*
